when people judge you negatively

Sometimes, I don't understand why they judge me negatively even I never spoke negative word to them. I never say "anjing, mati gw, mati lo, monyet lo, etc..". I tried my best not to say such things. Well, I just a human, I didn't realize what I have did and I also have hurt feeling. I am not perfect nor I am not that bad. Maybe I need to reflect my act before complaint. Should I change my behavior?
I am smiling and laughing, doesn't mean I am okay. I just don't know how to react.


I am not bad person nor that stupid. Please don't make me down with all those words. Or it just my feeling? I think I just need a break and go to holiday.


Will you notice if I change to quite person? I don't have anyone again. I tried my best but they don't care. I hate this situation, being lonely person.


*office
Feeling blue

You're my Dementor

I dont know what should I talk to you now. You already take all my soul and purpose of being here. You pretend everything is okay and doesn't happen between us. You pretend our story already finished without explain anything. You're my Dementor.

You ever be my teddy bear, the sweetest person for me. You are my ex-hero, always stand beside me. In the opposite way, you change a lot. You're the rudest person for me. You ignore me. You pretend i'm no one. You just leave me here. Now, you're my dementor.

I need something as my Patronus. So I can face you, show you how tought I am. I already find my limit, it's very hurt seeing you all the time with her. You give your time texting her than me. You give your time, do anything else than talk with me. What I have done to you? you change 180 degree compare one year ago. I even don't have energy now, you really take all my soul. Please show me the way so I can use my Patronus. Don't leave me like this.

Should I just go away?

*Office*
*Silent Room*
*Avoiding to meet you*